Once upon a time, way back in middle school, back when KaZaa was the new Napster, I downloaded a lot of anime music. This one user happened to have a lot of it, so I kind of kept him bookmarked and downloaded stuff from him a lot! Eventually, he IMed me, commenting on my somewhat excessive downloading and we laughed about it, talked about our favorite anime, etc etc. This was Glen, or Thoradin as I knew him. He taught me the wonders of MMORPGs with Ragnarok, helped me with computer troubles, and was ultimately an awesome guy, non-threatening, and made me start realizing that, for the most part, people on the internet aren’t out to get you. People are there to help and be kind. The internet is another way of reaching out to people you wouldn’t normally meet and talk to. I was 13 at the time (meaning Glen was, er, 26?) but it didn’t make a difference as we discussed our relationship issues, shared love of cutesy animation, and ^_^’s.
I ended up meeting up with Glen briefly at Otakon one year; he was at a group photo shoot so we didn’t hang out, but it was the first time I had ever met anyone from the internetz. It was really cool. I also happened to meet Nosha at Otakon before I met her online, which gave way to AtS and countless pseudo-meet-ups and plans to meet up (Alecia!!) and everything like that.
Then Courtney, through Dani, wandering around Columbia mall, seeing a movie, and being dorks outside on one fabulous evening.
Then making facebook friends before my freshman year of college: Kyle O’Neill, Adam Michaelson, Jim DeWitt, Ellen Graser, that whole group. Then that ridiculous Philly trip to meet Kyle, Laura, and Lindsey while I stayed with David Soffa.
Now vimeo! This weekend I’ll be meeting Adam Holwerda for the first time. I’m not scared, I’m not worried, and I’m not making sure I have other people with me. The internet has grown a new breed of trust, one that is based on having much in common but not sharing the same ties and people. What I mean is, the internet really exhibits universality of the world. I don’t know, I’m kind of rambling, I have thoughts going through my head at a million miles an hour. I’m so excited to finally get to hug someone who has been so dear to me in this last year.
Remember way back when, when it was weird to meet internet friends? Is it still weird and I just don’t see it?
This year, I plan to love myself and be the best person I can be for my own well being. Yesterday, I took a stroll around the mall, tried on fancy clothes and danced in the dressing rooms. I didn’t buy any clothes. I splurged on a haircut instead. I haven’t had a real haircut in over a year. It feels so good.